My boss offered me a promotion. Well, actually she sort of offered me a promise for a promotion. See she is building a new company and if all goes well I have a new position. That is guaranteed. But, do I want it? It would be big. I would have to endure another year at this work now before things take off (if they) take off. Can I call New York home for that much longer?
I think my answer is the most difficult in the world. Not because I cannot decide but because I already know and I am afraid of what it does for other aspects of my life. I do not have to make any decisions until June but this weight is starting to build heavy on my heart.
I make good money. I can make great money. Will I regret it someday if I follow the money and put my heart second? What if I go with my heart and fail and lose it all?
Tonight there is no interesting story or clever comparison to my thoughts. I am all over the place and my writing shows. It is nights like these that need to be documented just as much as the others....