Life is not only measured by our immense accomplishments. It is also about the little victories. This past few days I have been visiting with my parents during their first visit together to New York. It is funny to think they have never been here to see where I live, until now. Nonetheless, I got the chance to show them my neighborhood, my favorite places, my favorite people, and all my usual stomping grounds. During their visit we got to talking about how I have been feeling since completing my year here. I never expected to have negative thoughts after achieving all I wanted.
My mom reminded me that sometimes it really is not in the big picture but the small puzzle pieces that slowly connect. Every day I am working on my life's picture. Every day I add another piece and get closer to the big picture. I knew a few months ago that I was not finished here in New York and I think it is even more evident now. As I sobbed when I said goodbye to my parents I also knew that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I miss them but I know I have their support and love. Their visit has given me more strength and determination than ever. I now know how I want to mold this next adventure here. I know what I want to accomplish in New York. I even know how to do it.
The first year I was getting my feet wet. It is safe to say I was learning the ropes in this foreign town. I can best describe it like that of your first apartment. It takes time to figure out how to save space, where and how to store all your junk, how you want to decorate each room. It takes time to chose the paint colors, pillows, and decor. Each new apartment after the first it is easier. You may make minor adjustments and improvements to fit each new space but the base decisions pretty much stay the same. I think that is exactly how life is here. It takes time to paint this city with your individual colors.
I was walking home tonight with the biggest smile on my face. I think the people on the street thought I was frozen that way because I was getting some odd looks. I cannot stop smiling. I am surrounded by the most amazing family and friends who live far away but support every decision I am making right now. I also have the most incredible friends, family, and support group in New York. I am so excited to make the most of this adventure. Can you imagine how amazing it can get? I am excited to do what I want to here. I am thrilled to do things I never knew I wanted to do. I excited to build on the decor of my first year.
So, tomorrow I start my list. My list of small "to do's" that will eventually define year #2. This is my plan. This year will be about places to see, events to partake in, and people to love. Maybe all the breaks and mistakes were supposed to carry me here. This time I will get it right. My life is passing by and this time I am going to get it right. Nothing will stop me now.